Over time I've been confronted with the difference between these anticipated moments and the realities of what actualy happens. Sometimes its worse, sometimes its better, but its always different. Because of this difference the little future vignettes I play in my head don't carry the same excitement and terror that they used to. And instead, slightly amused I watch them as the strange little fictions that they are.
Huh. Yeah, I like that. It's good.